OOM: A Million Miles from Shore

[geeky_agent]

July 16th, 2012
9:15 PM


This was how it was going to be, this was the new normal. Like after her mom died but without the resignation. Like after her dad but now she didn't have anyone to be strong for, she didn't have anything to keep her from crumbling.

Getting up just to grab more kleenex, Chris drops back down on the bed, turning over her phone. Ryan had called earlier, leaving her another message, asking about Caiti and she hadn't called him back. She should turn the phone off, in case he calls again but she can't do that. Even though she knew Caiti was gone, Chris kept hoping for that phone call that would prove her wrong.

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[geeky-agent.livejournal.com]

She shakes her head without really listening to the question. It doesn't matter what happens now and Chris knows she shouldn't think that way but that's how she feels. Nothing matters because it nothing will undo the past. No matter what happens tomorrow, Caiti will still be dead.

"Thank you for the sandwich."

[chelleuncurled]

Michelle's more than a little concerned by her complete lack of reaction to the news.

"Anytime," she says quietly and looks back at her. "Chris, whatever you need, I'm here."

[geeky-agent.livejournal.com]

With a glance in Michelle's direction, Chris nods again. "I know."

Chris looks forward again, wrapping her arms around herself, feeling a chill come over her. It didn't matter how many blankets she had, she didn't feel warm, it didn't matter if she ate, she still felt empty, it didn't matter if she slept, she was never at peace.

"I don't want to call Ryan."

[chelleuncurled]

"You don't have to call him back, he'll understand." It's a complete lie, especially judging from his messages.

"I won't make you do anything," which is true. Chris was there for her when she needed someone and she will protect her as much as she's allowed.

[geeky-agent.livejournal.com]

She shakes her head but doesn't say anything to that, it was better if she didn't call, for both of them. Ryan had a few more hours to think Caiti was alive and maybe that was easier. The truth wasn't doing her much good, after all.

It was just the two of them now.

[chelleuncurled]

Michelle awkwardly moves to sit next to her and gingerly puts her arm around her shoulders.

"Are you sure you don't need anything?"

[geeky-agent.livejournal.com]

"I'm sure," she manages to say, barely moving her lips in a vain attempt to keep from sobbing. Eventually, she'd have to tell Ryan and soon they'd start planning for a funeral just like thousands of people were doing now and all she wanted was a miracle but that wasn't going to happen. This was it. Everything Caiti had wanted in life, all the plans she'd made and all the things Chris had taken for granted had died with her sister.

Covering her face with her hands, Chris cries.

[chelleuncurled]

"I'm so sorry," she says quietly and runs her hand up and down Chris's back softly, rubbing like her dad used to when her stomach hurt, trying to comfort Chris when she knows that there's nothing she can say or do to make things better.

When she finds the person responsible for breaking her friend they won't have a trial.