OOM: A Million Miles from Shore
May. 23rd, 2007 10:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
July 16th, 2012
9:15 PM

This was how it was going to be, this was the new normal. Like after her mom died but without the resignation. Like after her dad but now she didn't have anyone to be strong for, she didn't have anything to keep her from crumbling.
Getting up just to grab more kleenex, Chris drops back down on the bed, turning over her phone. Ryan had called earlier, leaving her another message, asking about Caiti and she hadn't called him back. She should turn the phone off, in case he calls again but she can't do that. Even though she knew Caiti was gone, Chris kept hoping for that phone call that would prove her wrong.
9:15 PM

This was how it was going to be, this was the new normal. Like after her mom died but without the resignation. Like after her dad but now she didn't have anyone to be strong for, she didn't have anything to keep her from crumbling.
Getting up just to grab more kleenex, Chris drops back down on the bed, turning over her phone. Ryan had called earlier, leaving her another message, asking about Caiti and she hadn't called him back. She should turn the phone off, in case he calls again but she can't do that. Even though she knew Caiti was gone, Chris kept hoping for that phone call that would prove her wrong.
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Date: 2007-05-24 05:02 am (UTC)Her mom was able to make actual food, but Michelle can't entirely imagine how Chris is feeling at this moment, and a peanut butter and jelly sandwich is safe.
"Chris?" she pushes the door open a little with her foot. "Are you awake?"
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Date: 2007-05-25 01:13 am (UTC)"Yeah," she says, sitting up and turning to look at Michelle. "When did you get back?"
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Date: 2007-05-25 01:26 am (UTC)"About ten minutes ago," she steps into the room and stands near the bed, her vision blurring slightly as she sees her friend's expression.
"Did you get some sleep?"
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Date: 2007-05-25 02:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-05-25 02:34 am (UTC)And she knows that Chris needs something other than her grief to think about, but she also knows that it's an all encompassing emotion. It makes even breathing seem impossible.
"I...know you're probably not hungry."
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Date: 2007-05-25 02:49 am (UTC)"Thank you," Chris whispers, taking the plate. Setting it down on her lap, she looks at the sandwich for a moment as if she's confused on what to do with it. The thought of eating makes her nauseous and she hasn't had much today aside from soup earlier.
Realizing she should make some effort at conversation, Chris asks, "How was work?"
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Date: 2007-05-25 03:17 am (UTC)"Do you even like peanut butter and jelly?" Michelle doesn't know.
She never thought she'd be the one in this position.
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Date: 2007-05-25 04:46 am (UTC)Coming to the present, Chris gives a sideways glance to Michelle. "What's the connection?"
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Date: 2007-05-25 11:55 am (UTC)If sheer stubbornness and hope could bring back the dead, Caiti would be knocking on the front door. Michelle still refuses to believe the obvious truth, starting the satellite process again as soon as she was sure there were enough system resources.
Life has taken so much from all of them.
She runs her hand over the covers, smoothing them down before sitting and looking back at her friend.
"It's a code buried in one of his text files," she breathes in and out. "Jack thinks it's connected to the nuclear disarmament program. He's called one of his contacts at DoD, he's still waiting for an answer."
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Date: 2007-05-26 04:58 am (UTC)Palmer the man Caiti had idolized, the same one who let their father die. He died, Caiti mourned. A few days later Caiti was dead now it was she who mourned. Like a row of dominos falling. Chris wondered who would mourn when she died, how long those dominos would fall.
"Why did he have that? Does that have to do with Valencia?"
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Date: 2007-05-26 05:21 am (UTC)"Yes, he hid an indentification marker and I - we're not sure why or how it's connected, but if the number matches one of the bombs marked for disarmament, then that means he knew about the possibility of an attack, and that's why he was killed. If we can figure out this clue, then maybe it'll lead us to the responsible party." She realizes she's pointing out the obvious, but she also remembers how she felt after finding out about Tony.
And Chris doesn't have Michelle's parents and brother and in-laws.
"They had to have chosen Jack for a reason." It couldn't be bad luck and she's not even sure ka covers this one.
She falls silent and looks at the closet. "Do you need anything?"
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Date: 2007-05-27 03:02 am (UTC)"Thank you for the sandwich."
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Date: 2007-05-27 03:39 am (UTC)"Anytime," she says quietly and looks back at her. "Chris, whatever you need, I'm here."
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Date: 2007-05-27 04:09 am (UTC)Chris looks forward again, wrapping her arms around herself, feeling a chill come over her. It didn't matter how many blankets she had, she didn't feel warm, it didn't matter if she ate, she still felt empty, it didn't matter if she slept, she was never at peace.
"I don't want to call Ryan."
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Date: 2007-05-27 04:27 am (UTC)"I won't make you do anything," which is true. Chris was there for her when she needed someone and she will protect her as much as she's allowed.
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Date: 2007-05-27 04:54 am (UTC)It was just the two of them now.
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Date: 2007-05-27 05:21 am (UTC)"Are you sure you don't need anything?"
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Date: 2007-05-28 03:12 am (UTC)Covering her face with her hands, Chris cries.
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Date: 2007-05-28 03:21 am (UTC)When she finds the person responsible for breaking her friend they won't have a trial.