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[geeky_agent]

[OOC: From here]

The door locked behind her, Chris made a beeline to the bathroom, where the other test was.

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[geeky-agent.livejournal.com]

"Maybe," she echoes, too tired to argue and nothing to say if she tried.

Chris folds her arms again, wanting to feel some warmth. "I can come by later and get my things." Her eyes don't leave the floor as she says this and some part of her mind wonders how she can be this calm.

[action-antihero.livejournal.com]

He nods, still not looking at her, too scared that if he does he'll lose his nerve. He keeps telling himself that they can't go back; he knows this. That if they tried things wouldn't be the same, wouldn't be as comfortable as they had been.

He doesn't have a choice here, and it's tearing his heart out.

"Okay. I wish--" he starts to say, but stops. Doubtless she knows what he's wishing right now, because doubtless she's wishing the same things.

I wish I'd never had to follow Saunders' orders, never had to shoot Ryan. I wish I'd never had to fake my death, and talk away what last chance of a future we could have had.

He stands, slowly getting to his feet and walking over to where she's standing in the bathroom doorway.

"Chris, I just want you to know..." He pauses for a moment before gently reaching out to touch her cheek, "...I want you to know that no matter how things turned out, I don't regret falling in love with you."

[geeky-agent.livejournal.com]

She leans into the touch for a second. I don't want you to leave.

For an instant, she thinks about taking back everything she had just and asking him to stay, they had each other and this place and they didn't need anything else. Or they could live outside, she'd go with him, anywhere. She had the resources, she could live his life and leave hers behind.

Could I?

But she couldn't give up her family and even if she wasn't ready now, she couldn't give up the possibility of having children. Chris turns her head, moving out of his touch, and looks away. She swallows the lump in her throat and her eyes sting.

It's better this way.

"I know. I've never regretted our relationship."

But sometimes I still think I should.

[action-antihero.livejournal.com]

There's a stab of pain when she turns away from his touch, though he knows why she's doing it. Though he knows that it's the only way they're going to be able to do this.

He lets his hand drop, even though all he wants to do is pull her close to him and let her cry on his shoulder. But that would only make it more difficult.

"Goodbye, Chris," he says, quietly, before turning his back on her and heading for the door. 'I love you' doesn't really need to be said.